found an escape: sadism.

wish i could play this 0 comments add
December 2, 2008 at 11:07 pm permalink

http://www.imeem.com/laughingman/music/rrwKbAlg/russell_brower_derek_duke_glenn_stafford_dragons_rest/

 

if only my piano skills hadnt left me so quickly.

 

the piano in this piece is so nice. it feels.. so appropriate for my mind.

ominous.

dark chords.

cascades downward.

 

im sorry if i have a liking for creepy/depressing-sounding music. iono it just intrigues me and it sounds pretty awesome. not to mention, pretty. haha

explosion! 0 comments add
November 30, 2008 at 10:33 pm permalink

about 20 or so minutes ago

 

a glass mug exploded in my hands.

 

so theres a small cut on my left hand between my pointer finger and my thumb.

 

thats interesting. 

happy thanksgiving 3 comments add
November 29, 2008 at 11:19 pm permalink

late two days. whatever.

 

mine was pretty good. tons of food. asian and traditionally american. and jello.

 

lots of video games of course. 

 

oh and dont forget the 8:30 am soccer practice that same day. and the next.

 

killer.

 

 

anyway, friday was spent at soccer, home, then later casey's house. definitely a fun night. halo.. nfl stuff.. the like.

 

today i went to volunteer at the soup kitchen with curtis and jeff. contrary to what we thought, we actually didnt help at all with the food.

instead, we helped with arts and crafts with the kids, namely, paper plate angels. fun stuff actually.

 

so random things would happen. a boy called me a sh!t face... later called an @ss face. uhh another boy called me the green goblin.. then immediately turned to jeff and called him batman. 

curtis regrettably did not receive a name or likeness. sorry curtis.

definitely an interesting experience, and weirdly enough i would do it again. i think it was nice that i actually made myself productive. or at least useful.

 

uhh.. when i got home at 11:20.. i made myself breakfast (noodles). and wouldnt u know it, i sat down on the couch at 11:50 and collapsed. 

*2 hours later*

finally woke up. wasted more time til we left for church.

 

the message today was on... how to comfort someone when they're dying. uhh.. quite a topic. im not sure how to elaborate on that but for the most part, it was an enlightening message.

oh yea, two girls named marina and merna chen (anyone know them...?) performed too. i believe marina was the one playing the violin solo and merna was the pianist accompanist. incredible performance, except im pretty sure shannon could top it easily.

 

and lets cap off today.. after church, went to costco. smoothies, mocha latte, new hard drive stuff.

 

thanksgiving leftovers for dinner, then homemade french fries. like.. literally slicing up potatoes and deep frying them. yumm

 

in a half hour or so im gonna make boba too. along with the milk tea. that should be good too.

 

gah -_- 5 soccer games this week: monday, tuesday, friday, saturday(2). insanity. and ontop of that, anchors on thursday. fun stuff.

 

hope you guys enjoyed your weekend and have a good rest of it. see ya on monday~

discontented. 0 comments add
November 26, 2008 at 10:15 pm permalink

i need a disconnect. hopefully these 4 days oughta do that..

 

except the fact i have soccer tomorrow and friday. 830 am til.. probabl 12 pm.

 

way to spend thanksgiving. way to kick it off.

 

*sigh* i just dont understand.

 

in another thought..

 

i dont understand why people have to change. it just makes you wonder... what is causing them to be different?

 

4 days. just 4 days.

 

then back into the world. that stupid, stupid world.

 

have a great thanksgiving weekend. try to make the most of it

 

PS: thank you shannon for today!

blahhhhh 0 comments add
November 26, 2008 at 12:06 am permalink

6:15 am practice. ohhh crap.

today 0 comments add
November 20, 2008 at 7:27 pm permalink

i felt so delirious. and so so dizzy.

 

maybe its the soreness of my limbs. or the lack of sleep and the intensive thinking required each day.

 

who knows. the fact is, i did not feel like myself today. 

 

actually i felt really light hearted and kind of bubbly. yea. weird i know. 

 

hmm. maybe i was kind of hyper today. probably the lack of oxygen in my head.

 

or the dehydration of my body.

 

either way, today actually wasnt too bad.

 

no 2 mile run today! soooo glad about that. except its tomorrow. that kills it.

 

bowling.. thanksgiving break soon... end of anchors.... ahh must it come any slower..

 

have a good day tomorrow.

yiruma.. 0 comments add
November 18, 2008 at 12:06 am permalink

soo overplayed.

 

so many stupid thoughts attached.

 

my sister has got to stop playing it or im going to go insane.

 

 

 

 

 

... or is it already too late?

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh 0 comments add
November 14, 2008 at 11:22 pm permalink

curtis has my anchor packet.....!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1!!!!!!!!!!!!!

3 day week 1 comments add
November 13, 2008 at 7:30 pm permalink

two days are already gone... after a.. eh.. i guess decent 4 day weekend.

 

earthquake drill. 5 minutes of my life wasted away.

 

uh.. almost fell asleep in history..

 

28/30 on team test. dangit!

 

tutorial.. boring. apparently everyones ran off to the library. lots of girls discussing twilight.

 

lunch.. video game club.. didnt do anything.  boring.

 

music... new music. not too much pain in my wrist..

 

soccer.. i almost died. nah not really. im just really frikin tired. 

 

now im here.. slogging away at hw. 

 

*sigh* distractions. i need them right now. sadistic violence is #1 on my list.

 

//edit: 

after due consideration, i want to reword something

 

tutorial: interesting because i got to hangout with shannon and michael and joseph and the other taiwanese peoples xD and we got to listen to michael perform.. w/o instrumental background. haha 

i want to 0 comments add
November 10, 2008 at 10:35 pm permalink

break my hand. this would make everything soo much simpler. so much more.. distracting.

i gots my 3 comments add
November 8, 2008 at 8:34 pm permalink

color today..

 

red streaks. hopefully wont turn out like patches... like last time.

 

today was okay.. wasnt able to get any work done.. spent pretty much all day outside.

 

got two gun parts today. hopefully more to come so i can build it.

 

now ill just list a few things thats happened so far

yay curtis got his tv

 

boo my health is declining

 

yay i got to hangout with grace and certain.. someones yesterday night

 

boo mom picked me up at 9:30 T-T

 

yay i got color this morning

 

boo i cant wash up til tomorrow

 

 

oh well. im so tired. i really need to get some work done..

 

have a good 3 more days.

uniforms. 5 comments add
November 7, 2008 at 4:05 pm permalink

had to stay after school til 3 to get my freakin soccer uniforms.

 

i dont understand why they couldnt of just given them to us during practice.. instead of a friday afternoon.

 

anyway... so as we lined up outside the room, all the guys were arguing with eachother over what numbers they would get.

 

honestly, i dont give a crap about numbers. in my life, theres no such thing as a lucky number.

 

and of course.. i was last in line to pick my uniform since im the guy no one really gives a crap about. i dont care.

 

and so since i was last pick, the remaining numbers were 6, 11, 14, 15, 16, 27, 28, and 29. I randomly grabbed a bundle of clothes which happened to be #14.

 

so as im trying on the jersey to see how it fits, the head coach of the entire soccer program goes

"hey who's the one trying on #14?"

"uh... me.."

"ya know that number comes with a lot of responsibility.. I'd want a baller to have that number to carry on the legacy"

well shit, sorry i picked it up then.

"well then, im not your guy."

 so i put it back and picked up #15... no one sed anything. i suppose since that was my # last year, it really has no value at all. how fitting.

 

anyway.. that was a waste of time.

 

hope you guys have a good 4 day weekend..

stupid sniffles! 0 comments add
November 6, 2008 at 10:26 pm permalink

>:O

painkillers. 0 comments add
November 2, 2008 at 9:48 pm permalink

i suppose physically yea, they work.

 

too bad they dont help mentally.

 

then again those are called anti-depressants.

 

however those dont work, so to hell with that idea.

 

btw no, im not addicted to drugs, even painkillers.

 

i guess because of my proness to injury that it turns out i have to use them so often.

 

 

anyway.

 

today was boring.. at least it was mostly productive. got the movie trailer finished despite the fact it was darkness by the time we finished. now we just need to hope that our missing associé was able to do her part.

 

other then that, i missed my dad leaving the house to go back to san jose, got some bits of hw done, and struggled to articulate. just like i am now.

 

tuesdays the spanish fashion show. thats gonna be kinda gay. lucky me gets to wear the suit..

and of course concert is on wednesday. thatll be great too, considering my parents still dont know what chair i am. ill tell them not to go. they cant even see me back there anyway.

friday maybe i can pray for something good.

 

until then...

 

have a good week. goodluck with your final poetry essays and the beginnings of the anchor.

wonderful. 5 comments add
November 2, 2008 at 12:40 am permalink

anything i took joy in yesterday..

 

pretty much wiped out today.

 

oh sure, i didnt blow out my ankles after all

 

but instead something else blew out inside.

 

i just feel like absolute shit.

 

 

 

theres no indication of hope.

im just.. an afterthought. 

 

this program has failed its supposed values.

 

 

if ever there was a bright side today, curtis won a 37" flat screen.

congrats.

 

 

add an hour. hah. wont help.

 

//edit:

 

great. i get to spend a good 4+ hours filming tomorrow. thats... just freakin wonderful. 

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